February 27, 2010
Wow, is all that I can really say. This day will for me anyway seeing that I am working overnight for the moment, is turning out to be very interesting. Over the past few months things for me have been changing and for the good as it would appear to me. And some of the things that have been happening I have came to an, oh duh, moment sort of speak. I have started to become closer to my God, and pray more often and thing started to happen for me which to normal people would not see, but that God does listen and does care as well as love us a great deal. Even though I am a gay male I know thing that some backward (so called christens) only clam they know because of what was told by them from the leader or pastor of there church. Today I learned from a dear friend that some scientist have discoed that there is a gene that everyone has but not everyone is plugged into it, dubbed the GOD gene, this does not mean that it gives you anything more than what you have it, is something that shows that the ones of us that are more intone with god tend to be plugged in to it sort of speak and the ones that don't what to have any part of religion no mater what it is are not. Interesting now the true question here is what makes the gene active for some and not others? Could it be the environment, could it be the way they were raised? Well only time will tell for sure but I do find it very interesting none the less. And you can Google GOD Gene and it will pull up a list of sites from which you can read to find out more. But a good one is the Wikipedia article as well as the TIME magazine one as well, there are many but the top ones are Wikipedia, time magazine, New York Times, and the Huffington post. But to make it easy have linked you to it the Google search. So in away seeking a higher power is built in us, and it is up to us to have faith and seek out that higher power. Which falls in line with a move that he wanted me to view last week called What the Bleep? If any of you get the time you need to see this movie, it is very in lighting about how we have the power as humans to change the out come of things but just being positive about it and by having a positive influence in our lives, with GOD or and fellow friend which is positive. I have seen this myself this week, for negative things whatever they may be such as a person or thought but for the most part it is people are repealed from which that they can no longer bring down. When one changes there mind set from memories of the past which involve pain to a learning and positive thing and not let them hold you back from what is to come in your life your brain starts to rewire its self to only feed in to that which is positive. Positive words and thoughts can also impact the things around right down to the water you drink and air you breathe, but that movie talks more about it and can explain it better I would think. I have seen this myself, for there is or was a person that was in my life that is always so negative about every little thing no matter what it was. Being the man that I am now and not letting things get to me and being more blunt than I have been (which I use to always be) told him to hit the road. I think that this throw him for a loop. For now he sees it import to talk bad about me and whatnot just to get a reaction which is not getting, he is slowly dying as in not being a round and running to the next thing that he can feed off of. It is amazing how just being who you truly are can effect the people around you, one they will not notice for that is something that they have always seen, two they ran in fear of it, or three they work hard to try and make you be negative like them once again and live in fear.
It really amazes me how much my attitude has change since once again seeking the Face of My GOD. I seem to have more tolerance for people around me then I once did. I also seem not to have time for the ones that are always trying to bring me down. I know that I will have pitfalls in my life this is a given but how you handle them is not a given, you can be negative about it or you can be positive about and thank God for giving you the ability to learn and grow stronger from it. For a great woman in my family once said, "God will never give you more than you can handle at any given time" Grandma Dear. And another taught me to do this, "When things get to a point that you can no longer handle the burden that God has given you look to the Lord and hand him what you can not possible carry any longer." When you as person look toward God going why me lord why me, you are having the wrong attitude toward yourself and toward that of God; you should be going to him in thanks not crying in sham and pity, for giving him thanks and love you will find in your life that the things you once didn't see as good turn out to be good and visa versa. God works in very strange ways, this is for sure but I know this he wants us to Cry out to him not in pain but in love, he wants us be lights for him in place which that need his light to shine.
There were two thing that have read this past day and they were; "Do all things without murmurings and disputings: That ye may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the world;" -Philippians 2:14-15 (KJV) and "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."- John 14:27. These two versus speak volumes to me and others alike. I do not take them for there literal meaning but for what they say behind the words. The Word of God is speaking to the your sprit not to you the human, it is giving your soul the nourishment that it needs in order to live and help you live with and through God. So take the things that he has said unto you and go forth with love and companion let you light shine and don't be afraid and bite thy tong so ye may know the good from which are your troubles. For the Lord God his here with you now and always, so you have not reason to fear have peace in your sprit, heat, and mind. Say now wrong doing towards the wrong dowers for they have what is coming for them just as you have what is coming for you, you are not a judge nor are you meant to be for that is the role of our Mighty God and Savior.
Rev. D
