R.I.P. My Sweet Angel

WoW, it has been sometime since I last sat down and wrote something. Well, I am sorry for the delay on writing, I just have not had all that much time. Now the one of the most important times of the year has pasted being Easter, I think I start getting back down to earth with you all. The insporation for this came to me just now seeing that I have a really heard weekend learning of the death of a really good freind and co-worker. Thous that read this I am sorry but I am not going to be naming her here, but I am sure that thous of you that i work with that read this will not have any problems figuering out to whom I speak of. 

She was a great insporation to me and many other that knew her. Her passing was very sudden and unexspected by many including myself. In this day and age you think that with all of the technolegy that we have that what happened to her could have been stopped. It really sadenes me so that doctors to day still relie on silly age limits to diagnose something. My good friend that passed on Friday April 9th 2010 had a form of cancer that is one of the most easiest to provit and treat if cought in the very early stages, but it can also be a silent killer for most doctors do not beleave that it can effict the young, that cancer does have a name it is called Colon Cancer. I have only known of one other person that was as young as her to have died from this and it was a cousen of mine that I never got the chance to meet for he was about the same age as she was and he past away about 2 or 3 years before I was even born. 

I have a great deal of sorrow in my heart, it as been sitting there since the news of her death was told me on Saturday the 10 of April 2010 around 7pm. I was in shock when Ron told me for just two day before we had found out that she had been give two or three weeks to live. She took it apon herself to shild us all from what was going on, for she wanted us all to remember her when she was at her best. She only found out about the cancer that clamed her life only a few months earlier. I remember many thing about her, and one of the favorit things is this. Not to long ago a movie was rerelased on to dvd, called Marry Poppens. (great movie by the way) in this movie the is song and in that song this phrase is said, "A spoon full of sugar helps the medican go down" she heard me sing that one day at work. Every time that see saw me and i was not happy or she need a smile she asked me to sing it.... (tears in my eyes). I miss her so.. and thats seems like it was only yesterday, that i did that, but I know it has been a few months. 

I know that she was had come to terms with what was going to happen to her in the end. For she stated it in her last blog that she wrote on her myspace account. It does ease the pain some to know that she was happy and at peace with herself, family, friends, and with GOD. She may have not been given a fair chance to fight the battle. I know that she did fight it with all that she had. God spoke this to me early sunday when going to work (tear filled drive) She may have not won the battle, But I have won the war for her, For see she is with me and No Harm Shall Ever Come Apon Her Again. When I came home from and very hard emotional day at work I had a peace about myself. I didn't say much at all, I ate my dinner, stared at her picture, took a shower. Then something told to look in the BOOK (bible). I was not sure why, but as alway I would know why when I came across it. I and sure enough I did. 

I am only going to write some of this not all at lest I hope, I guess we will see what God wants me to do. After about 20 mims of thumbing around the good book I came across PSALM 18. and I was shown something very dear that helped ease my sorrow filled heart. I felt theses word in my soul This is what is it is like, for have no worries my child.  

and i read this.. 

Psalm 18 (kjv)

1 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. 2 THe Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation. and my high tower. 3 I will call upon the Lord. who is worthy to be prasised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. 4 The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid. 5 the sorrows of hell compassed me about: the sares of death prevented me. 6In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears. 7 Then the earth shook and trembled: the foundations also of the hills moved and were shaken, becasue he was worth. 8There went up a smoke out of his nostrils, and fire out of his mounth devoured: coals were kindled by it. 9 He bowed the heavens also, and came down: and darkness was under his feet. 10 And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: yea, he did fly upon the wings of the wind. 11 He made darkness his secret place: his pavilion round about him were dark waters and think clouds of the skies. 12 At the brightness that was before him his thick clouds passed, hail stones and coals of fire. 13 The Lord aslo Thundered in the heavens, and the Highest gave his voice; hail stones and coals of fire. 14 Yea, he sent out his arrows and scattered them; and he shot out lightneings, and discomfited them. 15 Then the channels of waters were seen and the foundations fo the world were discovered at thy rebuke, O Lord, at the blast of the breath of thy nostrils. 16 He sent from above, he took me, he drew me out of many water. 17 He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them which hated me; for they were too strong for me. 18 The prevented me in the day of my calamity; but the Lord was my stay. 19 He brought me forth also into a large place; he delivered me, becasue he dlighted in me. 20 The Lord rewareded me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me.

Well I think that says it all right there. There is way more to that Psalm than that. But That was what i was compeled to read and to shear with you all. I know that there are many interpations of the word, but to me and what i heard in my soul today when I came apon this, to me this is about what she went through. In when she came to teams with her battle she had Cried out to the Lord and he heard her cry. This is how I know that she may have not won her worldly battle, but GOD one the war for her, and in doing so he called her home. 

I do not clame to know what death is like or what one may or may not feel when it happens, but from reading just that small passageed it gives me hope and it shows me in my mind that when we can no longer fight the battle the God our Lord with come down with a vingence and scoop us up, take us home and declear victory. If this is what death is like in a strange way I look foward to that day, For I know that She was victorius and so shall I. 

May Sweet angel may you Rest In Peace. I look foward to the day that we will all be there with you stand beside the Lord and our God.